土曜日, 12月 09, 0018
The Return
Hello readers! I have changed to a new layout and tagboard, all thanks to Wina and Santy for their inspirations. Frankly speaking I haven't been blogging for a while now, probably due to the fact that I am glued to the game Final Fantasy 12 for PS2. Moreover I haven't been teaching ever since O Level exams started so I have been spending more time at home and less time online. Nonetheless, I would like to thank Stels and Meela for their encouragement, and of course to all other readers whom I have missed out, you know who you are! XDSome of you may not know that I am a workaholic, I like to work, I like to keep myself occupied. I go to work during my holidays (except for public holidays). I can't seem to stay away from work. Ironically I don't like do things that I don't want to do so if you ask me to volunteer for the community, most likely I will come up with trivial reasons to excuse myself. For e.g. "I am sorry, I am busy giving my fish a bath, I'd love to help you but I can't...". How cool is that?
So tomorrow is the Brunei Marathon, I have to wake up by 4am, drive to SOAS college to park my car, search for my friends, get on the shuttle bus, register at Taman Haji Muda SOAS, listen to the speech, warm up, get in line and wait for the start off. I am not 100% prepared for it but I guess it's too late to chicken out. I have already paid for it so might as well give it a try. After all, it's only a fun run, no time limit hence no pressure, and it's only 5km (or is it 6km?). If I finish this within 45 minutes (standard time should be 18 minutes), I will consider joining the 10km run next year. Come to think of it, I have lots of things that I want to do for next year. If everything runs smoothly for me, I shall attempt to climb Mount Kota Kinabalu and reach the summit. A rather ambitious dream but it's a beginning for me. As they say, your dream will remain a dream if you don't start to plan and work to see it comes true. The only problem is I won't have the flexibility of time once I resume teaching unless I plan my schedule well. We shall see how it turns out. Definitely something that I am serious about!
Year 2006 will be gone soon and it's time for another new year resolution! I doubt that I will ever achieve any of them but for novelty sake, let's indulge the readers!
1] Learn to save more money! Virtually impossible but can be done.
2] Be more grateful with what I already have.
3] Try not to expect too much from people.
4] Let go of the past with grace and dignity.
5] Embrace new challenges.
6] Be more systematic at work.
7] Plan! Plan! Plan!
8] Put the plans in motion.
9] Be kinder to self.
10] Learn a new language.
Sometimes we tend to forget the one thing which makes us happy ~ love. Time and time again I see a lot of people overlook the gift of love. Nowadays they spend less time appreciating the love they receive and more time demanding for something they don't really need. I can relate this to myself as I used to be different, I dare say I was rather unreasonable, perhaps to a fault which of course led to many heartaches and disappoinments. Now I have learned not to make the same mistakes, albeit it means I have to give up a few things in life. As mentioned in my previous blog, I feel most appreciated if people whom I love shower their genuine words of appreciation on me. I get over the moon when my clients thank me for making a difference in their lives; when children especially toddlers come up to me and salam; when my friends tell me that I look slimmer (ok, that's probably superficial); when my brother texts me while he is in the SSEAYP; when people share their life stories with me; and many more. I like to receive physical gift too but I am not particular with the cost or quality, as long as it is given with sincerity and love. Henceforth, I don't expect expensive presents for my birthday, I would much rather have something handmade which carries more weight and it means a lot to me. If you were to survey my room, you would find momentos, items and stuff which were given to me over the years, some go as far back as 11 years. Although I don't always use them and sometimes I don't even throw away the broken ones, somehow I can still feel the connection, the feeling, and the love that were presented to me even if it means I no longer keep in touch or have fallen out with the givers. I guess that is the true nature of my personality. It does make it tougher to let go of the past but at the same time it helps me to shape my future, and have a better understanding in relationships with other people. Hopefully in time I will find my better half and stumble upon the palm that will fit mine. =D
7:22 午後 By Burt
